Here it is, my first post on this blog.
The Darker Side Of Geeez
Why the new blog, you ask?
Because I need to express myself in a way I will not on my public blog
By public I mean I don't know who all reads it
And this is important because here some of my Blog Rules will not apply
I WILL talk about my job
I WILL talk about my family members including my kids and parents
I MAY POSSIBLY use stronger language
I WILL be a little more honest and a lot more open
I WILL talk about my faith occasionally
Does it make me a hypocrite for being a different person here than I am over there at my GeeezBlog
Maybe-- depends on your definition of hypocrite.
I am what I am. Some of it is great and some of it is crappy
Do I tell you that everything is terrific when it is not-- no
Do I expound one set of values here and one there-- no
Do I lie?
Do I tell people how to be?
No
Do I show a different side of myself to different people at different times-- yes but that is called privacy not hypocrisy so I feel okay about that.
So you were invited here but you accepted of your own accord.
You have been warned, lol.
Ooooo scary!
So today I sit down to put down on (virtual) paper what is on my mind-- or some anyhow because I have a LOT on my mind.
Most of you know that last Monday my 19 yr old daughter tried to committ suicide.
I have some thoughts on that
Some of you know that my job really really sucks and the company I work for is surely going to close at any time.
I have some thoughts on that
I am fat and diabetic and I am tired of dieting and recently have had to come to terms that I really do look to food to deal with stress and that trying not to do so increases my stress. A Lot
I have some thoughts on that
I am contemplating writing a book about my life but think I would have to wait until my parents die.
I have a lot of cats. So what. If you don't get that and you think it makes me weird--- Bite me
I like to talk about my cats. A lot of time they are the best part of my day. Bite me again
I don't feel like I fit in at my church even though I love it in most ways but can't figure out what to do about it.
I really want to go on vacation but I dont want to go alone and I don't want to go with anyone. That sucks
I really really want to be able to do downward dog in my yoga class but I can't. Bite me Downward Dog
Bite me pinched nerves in my neck
Bite me being afraid to do what I want to do a lot of the time
Bite me exhusband
Bite me not having a ton of money
Bite me fat
Bite me waking up at 5:45am this morning when I could have slept in all day
Bite me not having sex in 15 years
Bite me the hole in my rental property roof
Bite me my sisters exhusband
Bite me Anthropology and studying fricking primates for a month
Bite me hair that won't grow out fast enough
Bite me holidays coming up when I really want to ignore them--- ALL OF THEM!
Bite me Bite me Bite me
But thank YOU so much for coming along to hear all the gory details!
Leave a comment with what can BITE YOU today!!!!!
I think this will be a good blog! Don't hold back
ReplyDeleteYou go girl !!!
ReplyDeleteI feel your tooth marks on so many of these issues....I think we could all do our own bite me lists....actualy sounds sort of therapeutic to me. Had you numbered your bite me's in numerical, hence people pleasing order, we could have commented on them individually, but since counting is no longer part of my pony show, I fear I would comment on the wrong bite me,perhaps be misunderstood, and then feel shame for making a statment in error....I therfore bite myself for caring about an order of bite mes....Please keep up this blog...I think we can all grow in, out and around it for months to come. Remember that you are loved by all of us.....and that if we were zombies, and you were alive, and further, that we could catch or corner you somewhere, we would bite you....with mucho love-o! xoxox The Pigeon
ReplyDeleteI say-------------Bite On!------say it like it is! Having known you for 35 years, I know these dark demons you are embracing. We share many of them, and so, we will bite them together! We are Langoliers!
ReplyDeleteYou are loved beyond measure..........yes, even your dark side. You don't need to hide it from those of us who love you so.
Bite on baby! I would like to add......bite me, aging!
Bite me........every relative you love being sick!
Bite me chronic depression..
Bite me high blood pressure...
Bite me aching, aging body...
Bite me poverty...
Bite me.
But, as you know, Jesus said Bite Me! to Satan and to death for us. Thank God!
Biting can be tiring.......I'll let Him bite those two for me......
Love you forever........Stacy
Biting burns calories, so bite your little heart out.
ReplyDeleteThank you one and all!
ReplyDeleteLub you long time, a-haaaaaaaaa.
ReplyDeleteThere are all sorts of things to bite and I think you deserve to bite every one. I'm with ya sistah on so many of them. You know what they are :-)
ReplyDeleteI am honored that you invited me to join the dark side with you. We all have this dark side and deserve to express it, it's cathartic. Then, we can move forward.
You are loved and supported Geez!